2012？自己？生活？

过了四个月又五天，我又回到这里来分享自己和我那多彩多姿的生活，经验。2012，最有颜色的一年，笑得最多，哭得最多，得到更多。

1. 角色
扮演了千百种角色，不同人就用不同的角色去对待，尽管自己讨厌那虚假的一面，当然，也用了自己最真实的一面去面对自己身边爱的人，或许也只有他们才懂得我真实的一面。而我最喜欢用微笑来感染自己和身边的人。微笑也是我的强项，微笑也是我的良药，拥有微笑，我就拥有世界上最满足的快乐。

2. 改变

短短的四个月里，生活的确改变了很多。从恋爱又回到单身生活，一切要重新适应，想让自己变得更强。染上了一头发色，换了一副新眼镜，全新的自己，全新的外在。内在？恢复了吗？一个月又两星期了，心会隐隐作痛，但一天比一天好，路是自己选的，就必须承担后来的结果，没错！对！就是这样！苦累了，告诉自己，一天又过去了。该面对的是现在和未来，而不是再缅怀过去的伤痛和怀念过去的记忆。

3. 责任

年龄增加了，责任也变重了，人也该学会承担了。以前的我总是觉得理所当然，天塌下来，有老豆帮我扛，家里米缸没米了；老妈会补米，闯祸了；外婆总是会替我说好话，累了，他会借我肩膀靠；伤了，姐妹会替我擦泪。现在我长大了，他离开了，老爸工作忙，老妈外婆不在身边，姐妹在努力为目标奋斗。我也是时候振作，承担责任了。该替家人扛起负担了，但我懂了，那担责任真的扛得我好累，第一次觉得大人不是那么好当，什么大小事都要看重，老豆老妈，可能我没办法做得很好，但我会尽力，知道你们辛苦。老妈，知道你不在老豆身边，你会担心，但别怕，我会替你照顾他，把他养得白白胖胖。你就好好的顾好弟弟和外婆就好了。我们会照顾自己的。我要扛家了！

4. 实习

读了近两年的diploma,我就快毕业了。实习科目也自然来临了，找工真的不简单，找得我快抓狂了，终于明白失业人士的无助，苦恼，哀愁了。但现在的我很幸运地找到了工作，ONE FM 电台，真的不简单，加入自己梦寐以求的电台，希望可以学习很多很多东西，报告长官，我会好好努力学习和工作的。开工大吉！

5. 新尝试

2012很庆幸地参与了新年合辑的发行，从策划，录音，录影，到发行。。。每一个部分都不放过，也看了自己在里面的表现，只能说还有学习的空间，还是那么爱唱歌，表演，不会放弃每一个机会，可能这次的我做得不好，但我肯学习，希望可以做得更好。

6. 希望

新年新希望，2012的我终算过得还不错，但本小姐比较贪心一点点，就那么一点点。。。希望2013过得更好，更幸福，更开心，更健康，更漂亮，更高大。。。更更更更更幸运。。。有点小小愿望，希望2013可以圆梦。

- 台湾之旅可以实行。

- 我要去迪斯尼乐园。

- CGPA升高高。

- Internship顺顺利利。

- 找到属于我的“他”。

- 家人朋友健康快乐幸福。

- 我越来越瘦。

- 我要长高高。

- 我要变美女。LOL!!!

- 新挑战找上门。

- 生活快乐平安又幸福。

- 最后，我要2013过得比2012好好好！！！

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013... ALL THE BEST... EVERYONE... 

Episode In My Life

June 11, 2011, the first day I met you. That day I was asking John to accompany me play the Guinness World Record in the angry bird event at Low Yat. John introduced a senior to me, his name is Desmond Teoh. I still remember John say to him "hey, mind you let this little girl queue in front of you?", he reply " ok!". We had a short and simple chatting while we queuing to play the game. I say "hi, my name is Becky, you?", he reply again "I'm desmond". Then he start asked me which intake I am, then we just know each other that he is my senior and I am his junior. Well, I still remember he suddenly asked me "Can I snap you when you play the game on the stage?" I answered to him "ermmmm, ok~". Is my turn to play game, I go to the stage, I didn't realize he had took my photo. After that, we separate to two way, I join my friends. 

Then, I told my friend that I get a new friend in the event, and he is our senior named Desmond. I feel glad that he is the first senior I met in my class. Since we know each other, I start add him in the facebook, and we start chit-chat in facebook and class. 

Then one day he say he want to introduce his "girlfriend" to me. I was waiting and exciting... who knows? His "girlfriend" is his DSLR... LOL!!! That time I was feel weird and get shocked. Then he keep use his "girlfriend" to snap my candid shot. I was like "________"

His "girlfriend"

This is what expression I have when I saw his "girlfriend" --- LAME!!!

Since that day, he keep snap my candid shot when he met me in college. I start feel scare when I saw him and his "girlfriend"... LOL!!! Sound weird right? hahaha... 

Facebook chat become the way for us to chatting, we less talk in college. Then we start "torture" each other. hahahaha... XDD... In the past one year, we become close friend. Since when? He called me "yellow bird" and I called him "blue bird", we treat each other like brother and sister. :) 

He is photography lover, still remember he always share his photo to me during we chatting in Facebook. In august intake, I decided to take photo communication class. That time I am not interesting to photography, but after the class, I get influenced by my lecturer and him. LOL! 

Mr.Valen, My photo communication class lecturer.
LIKE A BOSS!!! :)

End of 2011, I decided to join the photography club - Light@KDU in my college. I learn more about photography. Mr.Valen and him always guide and teach me about photography. :)Now, photography becomes part of my life. If not Mr.Valen and him, I think I won't involved myself in the photography. 

LIGHT@KDU

In my fourth semester, I have same class with him again. :) News print media class. As a good sister and friend, I morning call him during the news print media class. LOL!!!... I so nice right? wahahahaha... This become a habit of me. XDD... *Macam YES!!!*.teehee. 

Desmond Teoh, Is time to wake up!!!
Since when I become his alarm???LOL!!!

Before we end our semester, on July 15, 2012, Desmond Teoh in a relationship with Becky Lee. hahaha... We not brother and sister anymore, we are couple. :)Special thanks to my good friend, John Mcray Chong. If not you, I think until now I still don't know who is DESMOND TEOH! hehehehe... :P Deng! Deng! Deng! Deng!

Desmond Teoh and Becky Lee :P

Time really flies, we already together for 1 month and 11 days. Start from next month, we gonna to start our new study life. He going to continue his degree and I going to start my fifth semester soon. :) We still in the same college. hahaha... GREAT!!! I back kl soon, is time for me to off holiday mood and on study mood. Cool!... I also change a new hairstyle... SHORT HAIR!!! Gonna to surprise you all. teehee... Bye... see you guys in college ya...Miss you... 

I miss you... :P

4th semester

Forth semester finally ended. To me, this semester is the most hard semester for me. :( I took five subject for this semester which is critical thinking, advertising, public relation, IT and News Print Media. OMG @.@... GG.com

I not satisfy to my result of this semester, but it is over... What to do? Promise myself. Will work hard for my next semester. I don't want to get shitty result anymore. :( 

Feel stress and tension for the whole semester, but I can say is I gain many of experiences in this semester. Involved myself to few event like photolympics, within the frame, and poison network.

Poison Network

Within the Frame Photo Exhibition

Photolympics 2012

I realize it is not easy to organize an event, on the way to prepare the event, we have face many of trial and tribulation. The most hard I face is sponsorship, it is hard to find a sponsorship from company. Spend a lot of phone bills then finally i got few sponsorship. Oh yeah!!!... I get a name "sponsor queen" LOL!!! named by the light's family... :P 

On the other hand, great that I get few new friend, little siew yen, anndrea, pauline, milad, tick tick, zefong, ah hao, you jing and kuay. Nice to meet you all... XDD This is not the first semester I met them, just we become closer after we meet in the event. :) teehee... :) hahaha... 

Especially siew yen. My little sister. She is a very ordinary,funny and active girl. There always full of laugh when she is there. :) You never see her with a sadness face, she is the one who accompany most of the time when I alone in library. hahaha... Since when we become closer? I also don't know. I just know now we like a family. She is my sister and she always take care of me. She will worry me when I sick. She will borrow her shoulder for me when I feel sad. She will help me when I need help. She will be my listener when I need. She never let me alone :) I just join her for few month, but don't know why, I can feel very comfortable when we together. :)Except the four sopo,I think siew yen is my best friend and sister in KL. I feel want to take care and be her sister forever. :) siew yen, DO YOU? my little sister. :) Although I didn't know you much, but I willing to spend my time know you more in the future. :) I wish we can "sampat" together forever!

Well, there is another photo here. Part of members of light family... :) 

So glad I can be the light's member. :)
From left to right: desmond, pauline, tick tick, milad, anndrea, siew yen, mr.valen and zefong.

I experienced sweet and bitter in my 4th semester. :) thank you guys brought me nice memory. Love you all... 

Poison Network

SORRY!!!!!! for long time no update my blog... OK! My last semester PR event - Poison Network,Cartoon Anyone?

hahaha, don't miss understanding, it is "POISON NETWORK" not "CARTOON NETWORK"...

Are you guys wondering what happened during POISON NETWORK? Here we go......

Poison Network Info Board

Part of the decoration

Part of the decoration

The balloon... :) teehee

Nice right? hahaha~ Poison Network is a campaign to create awareness for everyone that some of cartoon have bring the bad impact to audiences. On that day, we have set game booth, talk and donation for orphanage. The event was very successful, everyone get fun in it and we get nearly rm1000 of donation for the orphanage. Besides, great that the orphans have visit to our event, they get fun there. :) They get free pearl milk tea and goodies bag. Cool! Some of the orphans also performed the traditional indian dance for the audiences, i feel the day full with laugh and fun. :) GOOD JOB!!! everyone... :)

Everyone are playing the puzzle game.

Look! the four guys so "gan jiong"... hahaha

Again, special thanks to friends whose support us and POISON NETWORK TEAM, finally we complete our mission. :) *Applause* hahaha...  I learnt many lesson in this event, although we face few challenges before the event held, but we get settle all the problem. Fortunately, we ended up this event with a very happy ending. :) Thanks God! 

POISON NETWORK TEAM :)

A badge created by our very creative member - jiong jiong. I think this is most memorable badge I collect in this year. It  prove everyone effort to this event. Thanks Jiong Jiong. Bring us a nice badge. :)

For you, maybe it just a simple and normal event. But for me, it is a very memorable event ever in my life. This is my very first own PR event. It might no done well but at least we try our best. Through this event, I can feel the presence of friendship and team work. It really good. :)

六六大顺满家园-序

哈咯！

我又回来了，

这几天，

刀疤Bec会和你们分享“六六大顺满家园”的真实故事。

想问问大家，

你是否曾经遇过像家人一样的朋友吗？

你是否曾经想过在你人生中会有这样的一天吗？

你是否曾经想过爱唱歌的你，有机会和一班唱歌人在一起出合辑吗？

而我，就是那么幸运的遇上了他们。

只是想简简单单地和大家分享歌声，

但却那么幸运参与了新年合辑的制作。

过去几个月，

大家都在忙着录音的部分，

而我，

也是一样，

大家好像天天都在过着年，

脑子里都是新年歌，

骨子里留着都是新年的气氛。

大家都在为这张合辑付出很多，

大家都在倒数着拍摄MV的日子，

大家都在期待着这张意义非凡的新年合辑，

大家都在等待着观众看见我们的努力。

因为这张合辑，

我们大家聚在一起了，

虽然，

我们大家认识的时间非常短暂，

但就因为大家的亲切，

大家变得像家人一样，

大家不分彼此，

为对方付出，

说真的，

我活了这么久，

还是第一次看见全体人这么团结的样子，

让我有了一股无限温馨，快乐的感觉。

回想起当时，

大家刚刚认识对方，

彼此都用陌生的眼神看对方，

到现在，

大家就好像连体婴一样分也分不开，

那种感觉真的好体贴温暖，

现在的大家不会像当初的大家，

现在大家都像自己人一样，

不分你我，为这张合辑付最大的努力，

为的就是让大家看看不一样的我们和努力。

Hell

Wondering what I am doing in the past few weeks?

Well,

 I am busy like hell.

Preparing for MV shooting, photo shooting, assignment, event planning, midterm exam and bla bla bla……

Seriously,

Sleep is the most things I want to do.

I need rest.

June will be my busiest month.

All come together,

Feel like killing me!!!

Now only realise that I am not superwomen.

I cannot do everything at the same moment.

I cannot afford stress come from different area.

The worst is everything looks like unsmooth in the process.

God, I need your help.

Please give me some power.

Waiting to complete my midterm exam and start my MV shooting.

First time join this shooting,

I think it will be very interesting and fantastic.

Can’t wait to meet the SY-ians at Penang…

Miss them so much!!!

Miss their laugh, crazy movement and chit chat.

Although It just left less than one week,

But I really feel like the time pass very slowly,

Friday, Saturday and Sunday will be the fighting day.

Everyone is fighting to the midterm exam including me,

It is only 2 subjects,

Sound like easy and free right?

Good!!!

Tell you guys,

It is not pretty much easy,

It is hard like shell.

Now exam makes me crazy soon.

Dear mr exam,

I try to love you now,

You also want to love me during exam la… okie?

Give me a good result of it…

God Bless~

改变~

最近的我过得很不一样。

这么说好了，

我生活里多了一群和我同喜好的朋友，

大家有着同一个目标，

拼着同一个理想，

做着同一件事。

感觉就像是一个温暖的大家庭一样。

好温馨，无比的亲切，无穷的欢乐。

大家总是会不约而同地相聚在一起，

虽然和他们认识的时间很短暂，

但大家就好像认识了几百年一样，

有着说不完的话题和笑话。

在那个圈子里，

我又扮演了不同的自己，

常问自己下一个我又是什么角色，

这种感觉很奇妙，

在不同的圈子，

总会露出不同的自己，

感觉就好像自己是个无限的百宝箱，

分分秒秒都在把自己改变，

呈现不同的自己给不同的人。

这样的我活得很精彩，

我喜欢做自己喜欢的事。

唱歌是我永远最在意的一件事，

而我常常把它变得更好，

我喜欢唱歌，

我喜欢音乐，

没有音乐，就没有生活。

虽然现在离梦想的距离还很遥远，

但我很乐意把它永远走下去。

如果你有梦想，

就应该去实现它，

有梦想，

就会成功，

不要放弃，

它总会有实现的一天，

或许过程不是我们想象中那么地顺利，

但肯定的结果一定会是我们要的，

一分耕耘，一分收获，

这是真的！

地球不会为我们而转，

我们必须靠自己，

往往计划赶不上变化，

那我们就随着变化来改变结局。

随机应变，

我们一定会创出一片未来。

最后，

我想说的是

歌友，

有你们真好，

有你们的地方，

就会有音乐。

我喜欢这种感觉。

P/S : 虽然和你们认识不长的时间，但我开始想念我们录音的生活了，想念你们的笑声，想念我们练歌是大家搞怪的样子，我好想念，好想快点回去和你们团聚。<3