2012年1月29日 星期日

家.

家永远是最温暖的地方。
第一次过完年像其他游子一样回到不属于我的地方。
心里真的很不开心和不舍。
想着想着,
眼泪又流了下来,
有时真的很希望这一天不要来。
眼泪会把我变得很懦弱。  
我讨厌这样的我。
很想要让自己坚强些。
但为什么每次总是失败了呢?
寂寞,它总是跟随我的身边。
这种感觉什么时候才能结束?
我什么时候才会长大啊?
现在的我,
眼泪不停地流,
很想赶快结束今晚的不开心。
希望老天可以带给我一个快乐的明天。

别人帮不到我,
自己的感受只有自己才会懂!
忍!是我唯一能做的。
脑海不停地浮现一切的一切。

真的很想找个地方来发泄啊!
很想摆脱懦弱的我。。。


2012年1月9日 星期一

January 12:33am

Just reach to KL.
It means I need to start my new semester study life.
Well,
I have not frustrated to it.
This is my responsibility.
I hope I can achieve an excellent result in this semester again.
Seriously,
I’m not satisfied to my result in second semester.
Even my parents give me the same respond too.
Now is 12:33am,
I still haven’t sleep yet.
Tomorrow I still need to attend the registration in college.
Started miss my home,
Just had call with my mummy.
Stay in the room,
I really don’t know what stuff I can do except faced my lappy.
My mind still very cleared.
Listening music and posting blog is the thing that I only can do.
Millions of boring,
Except boring, still boring.
The weather at KL is very hot!
God, please change the weather to rainy day.
The weather might be changes my mind happier.
Hope tomorrow will be a good day for me.
Sometimes,
I really need a space for me to breathe and release my depression.
I want to scream loudly… without any restriction.
First time,
I back KL with thousand of sadness.
I don’t want to leave my hometown.
Anyway,
All is over,
I should forget it.
It is not worth for me to remember it in my mind.
I should “delete” it FROM NOW ON!!!
Becky, U can!
Try to be yourself.
It is enough time for you to think the lousy stuff.
STOP IT!!!
FROM NOW!!! PLEASE!!!
I want to be a happy becky…
Not stupid becky!!!

FOR YOU~
Please you get out yourself from my heart.
There is no place for you to stay in my heart.
STOP!!! I hope everything can STOP in this moment…
I hope……




2012年1月2日 星期一

Beginning of 2012

2012年的新挑战,
我失败了。
但我不灰心,
因为对手真的太有实力了,
我输得心服口服。
这也证明了我需要加倍努力,
实力不比人家好。
对手来自四面八方。
但今天很开心,
认识了一些朋友。
知己知彼,才能百战百胜。
这话说得一点都没错!
失败是成功之母,
我会再努力做到最好。
今天真的尽力了,
也谢谢你们的支持。
比赛临前,
受到朋友传来的祝福,
让我觉得好窝心哦~
但我让你们失望了。
我不会放弃的,
加油吧~努力中的我。
也希望没入围总决赛的朋友们,
不要气馁失望哦!
我们一起努力,
希望可以在下一次的比赛有好成绩。
也恭喜得奖者,
你们要继续加油哦!
干爸爹!!!… XD


2011年12月31日 星期六

2011的最后一天...

每新的一年,
我都许愿要一年比一年好。
但几乎都没分别。
所以今年决定了,
让一切顺其自然就好。
今年真的是我人生的转泪点。
第一次离开家里到吉隆坡去念书,
第一次认识了不同地方的朋友,
第一次真正的爱一个人,
第一次为一个人哭了整两天两夜,
第一次自己搭巴士回家,
第一次迷路,
第一次在别人面前哭,
好多好多的第一次都在今年发生了。
但这也让我成长了很多,
我不敢奢求太多,
觉得自己很幸运了。
2012年的第一个挑战就是歌唱比赛。
说真的,我的心情紧张的不懂怎么形容了。


我或许不比别人好,
但我保证我会尽力。
希望表现不要太差就好了,
不管明天的结果如何,
我都可以接受了。
加油!!!尽全力!!!GAMBATEH~~~ ^^
希望自己在2012年里可以有更多的挑战。
让自己快乐点,
让自己坚强点。
很高兴在结束2011年前,
拿到不错的成绩。
2012年加倍努力吧!
哈哈~ 希望身边的人和自己顺顺利利,平平安安,快快乐乐,幸幸福福,健健康康。




*for you(Q), 不要再担心我了,我已经放下了。你呢?还记得我们两个一起说过不会在这么"stupid"了。希望你快乐。*

Christmas 2011

Hehehe...
Guess???
How I celebrate my Christmas???
Ding Dong~
This year,
I celebrate my Christmas with my cousin ~ Rachel again...
Of course not only her...
Still have other 3 friends.
Jasmine, Orange and Reynold.
We meet at Sunway Pyramid.
After that,
We just walk around.
Three of us (Jasmine, Rachel and me) keep going shopping.
The reynold and orange, they walk around.
We having lunch together...except Jasmine.
There are too many restaurant at Sunway Pyramid.
Therefore,
we have no idea what restaurant we want to go.
I let them decide.
Finally we choose "Bubble Gump"
I went there before.
We having a happy moment there.
We keep taking photo.
Our Mr.Reynold. also keep doing the "funny" thing there... hahaha..
They provided a sign board for customers to order.
But he keep change the sign board. 
And the waiter though we want to order. But we not.
I sure that the waiter will angry when they though that we are annoying.haha
I celebrate my Christmas with four of them.
Then,
They fetch me go to meet my parents at One Utama.
There are nothing special for me.
Because One Utama already be my third home at KL.
Lastly,
I just back my aunty house and sleeping. hahaha...
What a boring Christmas night for me... :(
Great to meet my cousin and friends.
Jasmine, Rachel, Reynold and Orange. 
Hope we can meet again... :)
Guys, How you celebrate your Christmas???





Wish My dear friends and family... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Christmas Eve 2011

Though that this year I will celebrate my first Christmas at Penang.
I never celebrate my Christmas there before.
I celebrate my Christmas at K.L every year even I haven start my study there.
Well,
My mummy suddenly come to my room and told me,
"We will go to K.L on this Saturday"
Sure, I get SHOCK!!!
At first, I have no idea of it. 
But what can I do???
Just follow. 
I decide to my parents that I want to go Pavillion.
There have 140 United Nation Bear.
I decide go to take photo with them... hahaha
So after dinner,
We drive through there.
There are a lot of car on the road. 
All the road is in the jam condition.
Oh Yeah!!! Finally we get there.
We walk around.
I can saw there are many different bears.
The bears's body have different decoration.
All bears represent different country.
Some of the artist are draw their country culture on the bears body.
I love them very much...
The bears are "so so" cute... ("so so" is my little Eugene's Quote)...
This year I have no chance to celebrate my Christmas at Penang again... 
But the moments with family is the best Christmas present for myself. 
Merry Christmas... :)





2011年12月18日 星期日

My holiday trip...

How you spend your holiday???
At first, I have no idea to spend my holiday.
My planning is sleep at home for whole day and practices my singing.
What a boring holiday, right?
But finally I have a memorable and enjoy holiday trip.
The members are Yisha, M.C, Kelvin and me.

Four of us?
Sure!!! The trip only has 4 members.
Sound boring, right?
WRONG!!! The trip very nice and gain many new experiences.
Our destination is Penang.

WHAT!!! Penang? The place near my house,
I always go there for spent my weekend.
You will think that any fantastic experience at Penang?
I can tell you that “YES”!!!
I never realise that Penang has many things that I never experience.
I would thanks to Kelvin be our driver and tour guide.
I would thanks to Yisha accompany me in the room.
I would thanks to M.C bring a lot of fun and joke for us.

4 Days and 3 Night Penang Trip.
It really bring me relax and happy holiday.
I forgot the unhappy and stress in the days.
Although only 4 of us,
But I really feel happy.
We visit for many places such as snake temple, toy museum, beach, Penang Hill and etc…

Except snake temple,
I have no visit before.
I still remember the first we at Penang.
Kelvin bring us to the snake temple,
I refuse to enter it, because there are many snakes inside the temple,
And I decide stay at outside waiting them. :D

Next, we check in the hotel.
The hotel not has the glamour decoration,
No swimming pool,
No café.
The hotel only provides the room for us to rest.
Of course!!!
This is not our idea.
At first,
We decide to stay at Heritage Hotel.
Due to a reason,
The hotel finally fully booked.
This cause we need to say “bye bye” to the Heritage Hotel.
Our cute sister, Yisha always complaint the hotel not have swimming pool. :D

Then we start enjoy our holiday.
We eat many Penang street foods.
Char Kuey Teow, Laksa, Rojak, Cendol, Pasembur, Wan Tan Mee, Prawn Mee, Curry Mee, Bu Bu Cha Cha, Apom and “Dou Kou” juice. * The juice I almost drink every meal. Wakakaka… It is very nice. I love it*
I most remember the food that we eat for two nights is Lok Lok. We purposely drive to Gurney Drive to eat Lok Lok. 4 of us eat almost more than 50 stick in two nights. Hehe… It is cheap and delicious.

In my memory,
I never had been visit to Penang Hill.
My mummy says I had been before,
But I don’t know. Hehe~
Maybe is maybe not.
Who know?
For me,
This is the first time.
We go to the top of the hill.
The environment is very nice.
Early morning,
We breathe with the fresh air.
Everything has a good beginning.
We accept the life challenge with the happy mood.
*sigh* everything is ok.
Unfortunately,
We need to take a *scary* train to the hill.
The train like a roller coaster.
No! Is scary than the roller coaster that I played before.
I can’t describe how scare I am.
The three fellows choose the “VIP” seat.
We can see the whole view while the train is moving.
OMG!!! @@...
My heartbeat really wants to stop at the moment.
I expect that if the train have emergency problem,
What I can I do?
Sit in the train and wait to say “bye bye” to the world?
OH NO!!! But luckily everything go smoothly.
If you give me second choice ask me to go again.
My answer will be “ YES!!! ”
Although the train is scary… hehe…

We also go to beach.
Share you a secret!
The first time I went to beach is when I was 13 years old.
Hehe! Sound so weird…
This time,
I go beach with accompany of parents.
Thanks for Kelvin bring us to a nice beach.
The water is clear and cool.
Let me feel relax and happy.
Besides,
When I walk under the sun,
I feel the warm feeling.
The sun like give me a new hope.
The sunlight like give me a big power and protection.
I feel like everything gonna be fine certainly.
When I step the sand,
The sand as soft as my pillow.
This makes me I want to sleep on the sand.
Now I realise this is beautiful of nature. :D

Holiday finish!
Is time for me to practice my singing?
I think so!!!
Hehe~! Say “Good Luck” to myself.
Stay tuned~